i've been waiting for a cool day to cook rip her first roast and that day has finally arrived. it pissed down rain last night and the scorching hot weather is gone for a day or two so it's time to pop one in the oven. the rip and i will be pigging out tonight.
hanged vs hung?
my buddy hanged himself but he was hung like a horse. i need the aqaurian to tell me if my use of verbs is correct.
yes, my best friend hanged himself from his sundeck overlooking the pacific ocean. although he was delusional and suffering from major mental illness he didn't want his body to decay and stink up his house in the hot summer weather. as the details of his situation emerge it is clear to me that his situation was nowhere near as dire as he claimed. he was constantly worried about his future and the possibility of becoming homeless but in fact he was financially secure and most of his ducks were indeed in a row.
i had a front row seat to his descent into madness and escape from reality. there are many different ways to describe his situation but i think his state of mind can best be described as; he was frightened. he was constantly worried that his finances were going down the shitter and that he lacked a social safety net. this can also explain why he didn't seek medical help, he was frightened of facing the future, he just wanted to escape the pain. i often thought of making the journey to his home and straightening things out but i was also frightened. i was frightened that he might kill me whilst i slept. he had a dark side that scared the shit out of many people, myself included. so it goes and so he went.
as paul atriedes often said, fear is the mind killer.
i love you sons of bitches.
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I think you got the verb right, he hanged himself. I'm not sure he chose the best method of ending his life, but maybe his choices were limited. What variety of fauna did you roast in your oven?
inside round. the rip and i are fine tuned machines and don't want our arteries clogged with greasy drippings.
I'm so sad your friend thought his life was so dire that the only way out was suicide..Goddess bless him ..
Billy, Sorry loss of your friend. Mental illness is a strange thing and it to bad your friend could over come or live with fear of "money"
Rest his soul
Coffee is on
I like the challenge of living on little, or living under a tree if need be. But he picked a wonderful setting for checking out.
Enjoy the roast, the neighbors dog and I enjoyed turkey yesterday.
the roast is excellent. it'll keep me and the rip fed for several days.
nothing fights mental illness more than living with a faithful beast. the rip is worth her weight in gold.
Fucking skeeters, a neighbor keeps an old tub full of water for the dog, suppose I'll always have skeeters here.
Billy Pilgrim:
Sorry again about your friend. Suicide is (of course) horrific for the person who chooses that method, but the effects it has on relatives and friends is also horrific.
I agree about the value of a pet. It (they) can help you stay closer to even keel even when things seem exceptionally bleak.
PipeTobacco
Did the world fall apart yet?
king - it's royal blue blood that's attracting them.
pipe - apparently hanging is the preferred exit choice in canada. i always thought a bottle of whiskey and a handful of sleeping pills would be the least painful.
thims - the universe is unfolding as it should. but i sure wouldn't expect those goddamned iranians to honor the treaty with obama. of course there's a good chance the captains of industry will not let obama or his successor honor the treaty. did i mention that the universe is unfolding as it should?
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