in the past i've mentioned my deeply depressed friend. he was in and out of deep depression several times over the past 10 years. the suffering finally became too much for him to bear and he decided his life was more trouble than it was worth. yes, he euthanized himself.
we knew each other for over 40 years. i thought he was coolest guy in the world when i first met him. he knew the lyrics to almost every bob dylan song and lived the party lifestyle. in fact it might be accurate to say that i idolized him for a period of time. in his last years he was in a very dark place and i called him almost every day. they were not easy telephone calls. some days he would be very angry with me and tell me not to call anymore and other days he be on the verge of tears and thank me profusely for not giving up on him. he died isolated and lonely, estranged from his two children and refusing to seek medical treatment. as they say, pride goeth before the fall.
i love you sons of bitches. and for christ's sake, be kind to yourselves.
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He simply went somewhere he would be more happy, life here can be a struggle for all of us...
i'm not so sure he's in a better place. he had a beautiful oceanfront home that would be hard to beat.
It sounds as if he was ill and refused to admit it. It could have been a chemical imbalance treatable with medication. The stigma attached to mental illness claims another victim.
Sorry man. This has been a rough year for you.
Perhaps a course correction to Texas is in order?
I can't imagine how painful that must be for you...I'm so sorry for the loss of your friend..and so sorry that he allowed the demons to win..maybe Ruby can cheer him up now..
gb - he was ill and he knew it but refused treatment.
thims - texas? i've heard there are too many mosquitoes and fleas.
js - he hated ruby and she hated him. if they run into each other, my money's on ruby.
Fucking skeeters..... But I've found a place to hang out some where there doesn't appear to be many.....
we haven't had any rain, ergo no skeeters. once we get some rain and pooled water, i'm sure the skeeters will come looking for a meal.
Wow. Shows you what kind of guy you are to keep calling him after he would yell at you all those times. You really didn't give up on him.
I'm really sorry to hear about your friend.
Sorry for your loss, BP. Hope you are doing OK.
Billy Pilgrim:
I am sorry about your friend. Suicide is always especially difficult to work through for family and friends. Twenty years ago, I had a niece who committed suicide, and it is still something my family thinks about very frequently and still affects us.
PipeTobacco
kenneth - calling him became part of my daily routine. as a man with a poor work ethic, i have lots of time on my hands.
mr shife - thank you for your continuing support.
pipe - for the first few days everyone felt sorry for him. now most people are feeling more anger than sympathy.
i've been him. i'm not now. it's near, hard thing those icy fingers on the back of your neck. keep heart, pilgrim.
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